When You Feel It, But She Doesn't

I suppose the worst part is knowing
When you know, everything else drops into the mass below you
And the knowledge itself eats away at you

Settings you both were placed in play over and over again among the blank wall before
These settings where the both of you were together and she smiled because you made her and when you both laugh at the same thing just because
These settings where you both were wrapped beneath the blanket of lust, where you gave yourself to her and she gave herself to you, because she felt comfortable
Because she just wanted to
These settings where you drove in your car with her in the front seat and you sang along with the verses swimming out of the speakers and into your ears
Prying deep enough inside of you, so you over analyze the words and pretend the song was written for to two of you

These settings haunt you when she says good bye
When you don't see her
When you lay in bed beneath the sheets which you shared
When you glance at the strip of snapshots above your lounge chair, and you sit below them and wonder if she's thought about you today
When the plans you once constructed together never happen
When you feel it
But she doesn't

You know these settings
You know she said 'I love you'
You said it back
And you know that she's with her
And not you
But that's okay
You'll be okay